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We shall meet in the next life.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008 @ 9:31 PM
eerrrhhh..

mood: gloomyy. D:
music: alice nine. - shunkashuutou.

Off for adventure camp tomorrow.
Ohhh mann. D:
I'm trying to be excited about it. I mean, its camp!
It's supposed to be fun!!
well it isn't if a fatass like myself has to climb walls and abseil
I was piging out like mad at home today, I had a sudden urge to eat.
Not. Good. DX.
Hmm, I shall try to look at this camp in a different light. To be more optimistic!
That's my current goal.
But maybe I should think about whether I can survive camp before that.
I don't want to let my teammates down when we do the group activities!
I bet they'll think I'm such a pain in the ass. D;!!

WHY IS IT THAT I CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT JUST BECAUSE I'M FAT. T_T.
No offence to anyone, I don't mean anything about ya.



I wish this world was fair in distributing the amount of fats in the world. Grr. D;

PS, ONCE AGAIN NO OFFENCE TO ANYONE. WHATEVER I SAY DOES NOT DIRECT TO ANYONE YOU HEAR? IF I WANT TO OFFEND ANYONE IT WOULD BE MYSELF AND MYSELF ONLY. okay? :D!
Friday, February 22, 2008 @ 8:35 PM
WHUT!?!.

mood: amused.
music: Arashi - Step and Go.
NAO~!
You and your dirtydirty sense of humor! > __ < !
Now you tell me that 'mokkori' means erection!! AHHHH.
Then that time when Tora went "mokkori!" in the video....
KYAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~
Oh the dirty sense of humor that such cute guys have.
So cute, it hurts. T^T!
Nao &Tora kawaii~!
o(*・▽・)ノ
Aw man, my back seriously hurt a lot today.
But it will get better tomorrow. Cause tomorrow is..
FLAG DAY. WOO.
come on cheer
I hope I won't get rude 'customers'. ;)
Oh yeah, Singapore miraculously won the bid to host YOG 2010.
Wow.
I'll be secfour by then.
I doubt it will concern much of me, bleh.
No as if I can do any sports anyway. :/
Thanks to all who were comforting,
I feel better.
Though I fear that this will only last for a while,
I guess I should be grateful for those few moments. ;D
Wednesday, February 20, 2008 @ 10:00 PM
tummyache~ D:.

mood: uncomfortable. (KAI~)
music: Base Ball Bear - Dramatic. (love this song)

My tummy HURTS.
It's like there's a lot of wind in it...
Disgusting huh? =x!
Anyways, I MANAGE TO FINISH ART.
YAY. -cheers-
But I haven't started on the other homework yet.
Oh well, it isn't due tomorrow anyway.
But wait, I have CCA tomorrow.
AHH.
How to finish... T_T.

Friendships give you happiness.
At the same time, it gives you pain.
Through this process one calls "friendship", you learn how to love.
And how to hate and despise as well.
Its pretty much a double-edged sword.
You gain, you lose.
Gain the small feeling of smiles and joy.
Lose all trust and what not.
It's up to the you to choose.
Whether you want the word "friendship" in that mind dictionary of yours.
If it keeps me happy, I guess I will accept it.
But if all it gives is pain, now that isn't a fair exchange is it?
After all the "hard work" that I have done.
Well my conclusion is this,
I'm gonna be on the neutral stand.
It doesn't hurt to not decide for once right? ;D
AND HECK NO POINTING FINGERS DEARIES. XD



KOF FEVER BABY.
Isn't Iori/Kyo/K'/Rock/ etcetcetc the hottest thing!!! < 3 !
Eh hum, excuse my fangirl moments there.
I want to watch L... BUT NO ONE WANTS TO GO WITH ME.
This country is damn sad, cause its filled with people who DON'T want to watch L. (well, at least there are some who wants to..)
I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS AHH. SHINJIRARENAI!~ D;!!
Monday, February 18, 2008 @ 3:59 PM
oh mother..

mood: devious.
music: Ikimono Gakari - Hanabi.

This post is dedicated to my mother.
-waves- Are you reading this?
I don't get why you want my blog url laa.
Parents don't check their daughters blog entries do they?
THIS PLACE IS WHERE I RANT/BITCH/EXPRESS MY TRUE SELF.
Well, I'll try to cut down on the flaming (WAIT DO I EVEN FLAME?) but that was in the past, I won't talk about about others la.
Che, now YOU are monitoring my posts I feel like my freedom's GONE GONE GONE.
Erm, please don't tell me I'm gonna get a really bad scolding just because I use all the 's' 'f' 'b' 'd' 'a' words.
I mean, I try my best to sensor them? It's an effort! D;
If you mind so much I'm gonna either change the url and switch to something else!
URGH. D:!
It really isn't normal for parents to want to see their child's blogs, so far I see NONE.


BLEAH. T_T.



Was there video comp today?
SHIT.
I thought it was optional?
It is, right?
I mean, no point I stay every Monday and only to go back home after like 30 minutes.
But if there was, I'm sorry I didn't stay back.
I seriously thought we didn't need to.
I really am sorry, T^T.
not to mention i forgot about it
You didn't see the previous line.

Don't be angry with me ne! > _ < !
Sunday, February 17, 2008 @ 1:00 PM
.

mood: geeky. (oh Tora. =w=)
music: The GazettE - Silly God Disco.

Yesterday was great, at least the dinner was.
I shan't disclose much details, in fear of the secrecy. xDD
LOL, kidding laa.
But I have to say:
Footdrill is indeed cool.
haha, can't get the moves that the RI guys did outta my head. X!_!X
Oh oh and one of the groups used ARASHI's "kitto daijoubu" as the song accompaniment!
WOAH. FOOTDRILL + ARASHI = LOLWHUT. xD!
And LINDA. I can't forget the 'Taro' thing. AND THE WHOLE "MMM". Triple M. X_X
MY TORA ISN'T TARO!!! Dx !!
HAAHA. ;D
And you lost all face yesterday, now you're left with? Nothing? =x oops. hehe.
I was surprised that Ruth read Vampire Knight. Seriously. O_O.

AQUARIAN AGE TRAILER GRR WHY DIDN'T THEY SHOW MORE OF TORA I LOVE SHOU-KUN, HIROTOOOO, SAGA-SAMA, NAO-SAN AS WELL BUT NOT ENUFF OF TORAA GRR. WHAT WERE THE PRODUCERS THINKING IZZIT BCOS TORA TOO SHY ALREADY? X_____x

BUT I STILL LOVE ALICE NINE AND MIRRORBALL~ KYAAAAA d(*^ー゜)b

and i love tora very very much 。・゜゜・(>_<;)・゜゜・。
Thursday, February 14, 2008 @ 10:39 PM
heh..

mood: bitchy.
music: Hamasaki Ayumi - SURREAL.

I've finally understood.
Everything that placed me in confusion.
I kept asking myself, "whats wrong with myself?"
Then I looked at the mirror - Oh.
So this was what it meant.
You people really think about appearances huh.
Always favouring the prettier ones.
Well sor-ry for being a damned fatty.
You got a problem with appearance?
Or is it my character?
I'm too proud? Loud? Stupid? Am I some fucking dickhead?

Urgh, I was thinking over these kind things when I was coming back home from RC in the car.
Well, not the ones mentioned above, more of even negative.
More impulsive.
More vulgar, out of this world, one could never imagine.
I was feeling the hate and anger.
From everything that made me pissed ever since the day I was born.
The feeling, was strong.
The strong hatred that was buried in me.
I kept cursing vulgarities during the ride, in my head of course.
But eventually, I slept. ;D!
Call me weird. Haha.





No one ever understood me.
But I never expected anyone to anyway.
So it's all cool.

YEAH RIGHT. -insert major sarcasm here-




SOMEONE HELP ME GET OUT OF THIS NEGATIVE FIELDD.... AHH. T_T...
Tuesday, February 12, 2008 @ 7:50 PM
XO..

mood: scared.
music: Kra - artman.
OMFG.
Guess what was in my teeny weeny room.
A DAMNED COCKROACH.
AND IT WAS FREAKING HUGE.
And its was so near my door I couldn't bear to scream and run out.
I had to call the house phone using my handphone and get my auntie to kill it.
sigh.. It happened last time as well. D;
I think there's a nest somewhere..
IN MY ROOM. MY TINY TINY ROOM.
WHUTTHEF.
Lucky my auntie sprayed insecticide already.
DIE COCKROACHES.
Yes I know it's cruel but wth.
They started it first, invading me room. D<
Anyway, went out with Bridget and her two other friends Joanne and Sherlyn.
They are such nice people ;D
But my mum... Once again being so overprotective, is not letting me go out with them anymore.
NOOO. D;!!!
Damnit and it was the same with Jo too..... T^T
ITS NOT FAIRR! D;!
T_T.
I don't dare to sleep in my room already.
Scarred for life, stupid cockroach. :P
Last time I didn't dare to come back to my room was because ANTS invaded my private space.
STUPIDE.
I. Hate. INSECTS.
Wait I just realised that insect and incest have the same letters... LOLZ. xDDD!
Haven't done homework yet.
SIANZ AHH.
D:
Monday, February 11, 2008 @ 4:33 PM
bet..

mood: blah.
music: The GazettE - 傀儡絵. [2nd track on Guren =w=!]

I'm gonna bet like 1$ that half of the sectwo cohord placed the Japan trip as first choice.
Ohh man, kinda breaks my heart whenever I think, "woah, like there are only 30 places?"
There's just too many people, but who am I to stop? I mean, dude, your choice?
I'm not gonna stop or glare at anyone for crying out loud.
I'm just gonna pray hard that I can get my place. ;D
But I'm just worried that my medical thing will stop me from getting the place.
Cos there's too many they are only gonna get the best:
-People who speak Japanese.
-People who can afford homestay.
-People who are fit and healthy.

I am none.
Well I doubt my Japanese language skills can beat those that study at learning centres.
sigh. Can only pray hard. Very hard.
Hm... Tomorrow may be going out to lunch with Bridget and Jessie! ;D!
I feel guilty always having to decline their church service invites. D:
OH, and there's gonna be some annoucement thing for Aquarian Age live action movie! alice nine is gonna be there! Together on the same stage as Sakurada Doori! arisuxtenimyu crossover?! omfgwtfbbq! =x
haha, whoops, my inner self got the better of me. XP.

Did I mention how shocked I was after reading YOSHIKI (X JAPAN!)'s blog entries on his myspace?
He's so...
CHEERFUL.
HYPER.
ALWAYS SAYING 'I LOVE YOU' AT THE END OF HIS POSTS TO HIS FANS
Woah, and I thought he was the solemn and boring kind of person.
I. Was. So. Wrong.
He seems like such a cool person! But extremely busy too.
And some of his posts really make me wanna go, "oh Yoshiki, don't be sooo sad. D;"
He's really deep when it comes to personal stuff, especially things related to X JAPAN.
Yes, this year would be the 10 anniversary of hide's death.
Personally, I haven't heard much of X JAPAN, I only know them because most vk bands nowadays really respect them a lot.
{only heard 'Forever Love', and watched hide's funeral video on yt. T_T!}
AND X JAPAN WAS THE PIONEER OF VISUAL KEI BANDS. YES, THE PIONEER.
Thus the popularity.
Without them, there wouldn't be alice nine or Gazette or any other vk bands.
And yes X JAPAN performed last year and are reviving the band again.
I hope Yoshiki won't be too emotional about this.
Ganbatte! xDD!



Did anyone watch the picture where Yoshiki was wearing a wedding dress?
OMFG SO FUNNY! ;D!
Sunday, February 10, 2008 @ 8:41 PM
oh noes..

mood: okay.
music: Hamasaki Ayumi - talkin' 2 myself.
OK, so I didn't do chinese homework.
REJOICE. For my funeral that is.
I'm gonna get hanged by the teacher.
Ahh heck cares.
I'm more worried about the overseas trip thingy.
I want to go Japan.
But I'm sure hundreds of others too.
Then its about my illness.
Did I tell anyone that I was diabetic?
Well I'm telling the world now, I am.
I hope this wouldn't change your views of me.
Gosh I sound like some sick person thats gonna diee NO.
I AM NOT GONNA DIE JUST BECAUSE I HAVE A EFFIN SICKNESS.
I just need to cut down on the sugars, thats all.
I'm scared that they wouldn't allow me to go overseas just because of this.
This stupid thing.
How I wish I was cured.
But I'm absolutely not putting in effort am I? D;
Oh well. I just have to pray hard. X_X.
That I get accepted to go.
I really want to go there..
My dream country..
It definitely puts a smile on my face just thinking about it.
;D!
Saturday, February 09, 2008 @ 5:19 PM
DONE..

mood: accomplished.
music: Kra - Yell.

I. AM. FINALLY DONE.
I'm not sure whether it's worth praising though... forgive my bad colour sense
BUT my fruits of labour!! alice nine x Kra!!
They performed a live together recently, thus the picture.
I just had to use it. X__X!
Isn't keiyuu the cutest thing! XD!
I'm starting to love Kra noww.
SOOO, gonna go dl songs at a later time!
Now, I need to REST.
My head's been aching ever since just now.
sigh.
@ 1:46 PM
under construction..

this blog may be undergoing a blogskin change AGAIN.
lol
so many times huh.
sorreh. xD
well, matte ne.
i'm going to finish the image first
then i'll see what to do.
ja ne.
-wave-
Friday, February 08, 2008 @ 1:04 PM
movie project- start!.

mood: determined.
music: SMAP - Aoi Inazuma.

The -getting people to watch these movies with me- project.
START DESU.
I'm looking for people to go and watch these movies with me when the time comes.
1.L: change the WorLd.
THIS MOVIE IS A MUST WATCH DESU! I JUST FINISHED WATCHING THE LAST NAME A FEW MINUTES AGO, I MUST MUST MUST WATCH THIS NO MATTER WHAT.

2. Koisora.
Hit movie in japan leh, isn't it another must watch? xD It's been a while since I watched a romance movie anyway. since enchanted

Wellllll there was another movie... Sweeney Todd. But apparently its M18. What the fuu. Heh, I'll find another way to watch. >D

AND YES I KNOW THEY ARE ALL JAPANESE MOVIES, WELL EXCUSE ME FOR MY GOOD TASTE ;D!

So... Any takers? *puppy eyes*
And no, I'm not treating anyone to the tickets. You're paying for yourself. Haha. xDD!
I hope there will be some who would wanna gooo~ x_x!!
Thursday, February 07, 2008 @ 6:44 PM
...

mood: listless.
music: MEILIN - Candy Boy.

I don't know what to do.
What path I should take.
What I should do.
What I should say.
From my everyday necessities. What I wear, what I eat.
My choices.
It's as if the world's telling me that all the choices I make is wrong.
Absolutely unacceptable.
Learn to make your own choices.
I already am.
It's just that you and the whole wide world don't agree.
Then why don't you tell me what to do.
Instead of just standing there telling me how wonderful I looked in the past.
A cute, lively, slim girl.
Now I'm the total opposite.
Fat. Ugly. Atrocious behaviour
What the hell am I supposed to do now.
I don't know.
If only there was somebody out there.
No I'm not calling our for some person to help hell no.
I really need help here.
No you don't, you can do everything by yourself.
I want help from someone.
Some kind person amongst this disgustingly self-centred society.
Wednesday, February 06, 2008 @ 7:59 AM
cny eve..

mood: refreshed.
music: The GazettE - Hyena.

Happy Chinese New Year eve everyone! :D
I'm going back to ij today! In about 20 minutes time. xDD
CNY... It's all about the angbaos &goodies.
I shouldn't eat too much goodies, I'll put on more weight.
THATS BAD FOR A FATTY LIKE ME. SRSLY.
Yesterday this blog went under a makeover, minor one though.
I just had to use this particular photoshoot that I found at photobucket.
Just a little photoshopping and done, I made it into this picc!
It was actually quite blur because between Saga and Shou was the page cut. [it was a two page photo]
Isn't Tora the hottest with that look
NO HE'S HOT WHENEVER AND WHEREEVER!
Haha, ignore the two sentences above. mindless fangirling
Hmm... Playing Tales of the World: Radiant Mythology.
Damn I haven't finished crisis core -shock-.
And I started playing the original FF7 already! O.O well I got the iso file from gametorrent and apparently some smart guy configured the ps version of ff7 to psp file.
KWEL.
Love that smartass. XD but the thing is that on my psp the game image turns out as golf.. =.=
No worries though, it is still ff7. (:
ENGLISH VERSION SOMEMORE. YEAH.

Oh I better go and change now. It's getting late. X_X.
Ja!
Monday, February 04, 2008 @ 6:16 PM
heyloo..

mood: discontent.
music: Base Ball Bear - Dramatic.
I haven't posted in a long time have I?
There's really nothing much to write..
Met Anabel ma'am at the bus stop today :D Said Hi but I think she heard me telling Sadrina "My ex-NCO is right beside me!!"
Oh shoot. x_x
I hope she didn't hear. But she was sitting right beside me. T_T..
Oh well. Then I met Cherry from primary school. She grew taller and... older? Haha.
Going back to ij on Wednesday~
But before that- Tomorrow. Geography test. URGH.
And that person is becoming such a jerk as every single lesson passes by. But I still laugh when during his lesson.
What the ____ is wrong with me I wonder. D:
LOL, imagine us wearing qipaos tomorrow and doing the geography test.
BUAHAHAHA.
Video comm! I didn't do anything. Nothing. T_T
SORRY.
I REALLY AM.
D:
SHOU AND HIS ANIME REFERENCES IS LOVE.
Of course NAO and his gundam/ff/food related posts too^^ He should really take care of his -eh hum- humping dog toy thingy. Was disturbing when I saw the video; -shocku- NAO-SANN~ X^X!
Saga and his photoless posts- show us moar sexy saga-sama~!
Hiroto and his damn cute and enthu posts~ You salaryman with your tour goods =w=
AND TORAA.
Get well soon [I hope you are already well with the tour continuing] and...
POST☆~!
Will always be awaiting Tora's blog entries~
*^*!